The calm days are vital. It is so easy to lose sight of the little things when it feels like the world is going to swallow you up because the amount of stressors that come in from this process.

Right now my stressors are… well they feel mountainous, but when when I stop and try and do the gratitude journaling, even just the listing in my head, it is easier to remember these problems are not so big. Yes, I’m concerned for kiddos mental health in the long run, and yes, I’m not looking forward to the monetary losses and issues that are going to arise from the fight that is coming, but I have my health. Tyler and Addie are healthy. I have a job, my finances are improving, I’m writing again and we have time.

We get to enjoy time as a unit, and Tyler is all in on it. I don’t have to beg for it to matter to him. He loves it, and us. I saw a cardinal today, and the person who is watching, well I hope they are happier for me now too. I know they would understand.

I’m thankful for the calm days, and use them for nourishment to try and build strength for those that are less so. Even on the ones that aren’t good, I am promising myself to try and list the positives, at least some. To keep trying and at least wrap myself in these calm happy days like a favorite coat.